Frightening Questions.

• Am I mourning my intelligence, or am I mourning mania?
• Has my "real" self always been kind of lukewarm?
• How much has mania influenced or controlled my work as a teacher?
• Is mania what people actually liked about me?
• Has my Myers-Briggs personality type changed?
• Will I ever lose this weight?
• How much has bipolar disorder shaped my personality?
• What might I have done or tried so far if I didn't have panic disorder?
• How many of my decisions have come out of fear?
• What does my therapist think of me?
• Am I, fully revealed, lovable?
• Without mania, would I have made so many mistakes?
• How much do I want to keep of my manic self?
• Was "going public" the right choice?
• Why do I have such trouble reading?
• Can I be healthy and keep the interest of my favorite people?