"I did the only thing I could do to deal with my pain." --Alexandra Stoddard
What can I do to deal with my pain? What have I done? I hope I'm not holding onto it. It lifts sometimes.
Writing is my primary outlet. If it's on paper, it rests, at least for a while. I can coach myself through the pain. Pain can also help me build something new. I build little castles of words where the pain can live.
I let others hold it. Being on the phone with Mom calms me down. Josh watches me closely. Bruce listens endlessly.
When I'm hurting, reading is nearly impossible. But if I try and don't let frustration (and then pain) win, I can usually experience a reader's peace. I focus away from the pain or fear. I feel constructive. I give my mind something new to gnaw on.
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