What Am I Afraid Of?

• Being alone--the council betraying me somehow and my being unable to reinstate them. I don't think this would every happen, but it's an irrational fear I have.
• Insurance not paying for what we need (a more realistic fear!).
• Seeing things, animals, and people that aren't there.
• Hearing voices that don't just mock me but tell me what to do. That hasn't happened. I hope it won't.
• Objects in water--shipwrecks, corpses, and more benign objects such as deck furniture and towels.
• Stinging insects--only since I had an allergic reaction.
•  Being trapped with nothing to read and no way to write.
• Wide spiral staircases, especially the one at the Biltmore. My knees almost get too weak to climb.
• Oliver's falling out of his window.
• Losing more of my intelligence to disease and medication.
• Losing more of my memory.
• Offending one of the people I love most.
• Doing strange things in my sleep.
• Hiding items without remembering.
• Being away from Oliver for more than a night (I've only done one night twice!).
• Being a mediocre mother.
• Someone's or something's stripping me of my sense of identity, which could happen in so many small and large ways.